If I had to describe myself in one word, it would be fangirl. Twenty five, and this is where I am now? (Yes, the voices in my head are judging me right now.) But there won’t be any truer word, besides that, to encapsulate who I am of at this very moment. (Also a plug to Rainbow Rowell’s book Fangirl, a great read!)

I enjoy my fandoms. It takes me to a happy place. It unwinds me. It makes me think and discuss about issues. It makes me feel all sorts of emotions. It entertains me. It connects me to people. It has opened up my word and changed my life.

Maybe, it is silly (to some of you) to like something so much to the point of squeeing incoherently, but it makes me happy… almost alive? (I feel most disinterested in life on some of most days.) The celebrities that I look up to, have motivated me to become a better person. They make me believe in the impossibilities. And it is amazing to think about how much one person can make a difference in one ordinary person’s life.

OTP (one true pairing) is an aspect of fandom that seems inescapable these days. It is your favourite character ship (this includes both romantic and friendship BROTP. So in an effort to discover myself (or more for you (my dear reader) to get to know me better), I will list down my TEN OTPS countdown. Wooo~ I have many more OTPs (it’ll be impossible to list them all) and they are listed in no particular order. (This post is a WIP. I have a short attention span.)

Piper/Leo Charmed

Before I even knew what shipping was, I shipped Piper & Leo from Charmed. It was my favourite tv show growing up. I even kept a little notebook filled with pictures and notes about them. There was something adorable and pure about their love that kept me rooting for them. (Other ships: Phoebe and Cole. Prue and Andy.)

9. Louis/Lestat Interview with the Vampire
Interview with the Vampire

I love the book and movie.

8. Zooey Deschanel & Joseph Gordon Levitt
JGL Zooey

They are adorable.

7. Pikame (JE)

I ship them so much, I wrote fics.

6. Ohmiya (Arashi)

My favourite boys! They are too cute.

5. Arthur/Eames (Inception)
Arthur Eames

4. Atobe/Tezuka (Tennisu no oujisama)

Whether it is manga/anime/tenimyu, I ship it.

3. Charles/Erik (XMFC, X-Men)


2. Harry/Draco (Harry Potter)



welcome back

I’ve missed blogging! And now that the blog is up again, I can write to my heart’s content.
Where do I even start? I feel that there are so many things I want to say but I don’t know where to begin. I haven’t had an “alone time” for ages and I am so glad that I managed to sleep in and watch movies the whole day long. I’ve caught riding in cars with boys, austenland and yours, mine, ours. I really want to own a regency inspired dress and visit europe some day!


I attended a cat themed party last month and had so much fun. I also finally my baby!snow white skirt out for the first time.

Is it strange that I have pockets of thoughts spilling out of my mind, but I can’t find a way to write it down neatly. Maybe it is because I don’t like blogging at this hour. My energy levels are low at night. I really want to blog about my OTPs of OTP in the next entry.

insert space

It seems a little quiet (these days)
without you (and your space)
I’ve missed your laugh, love and presence
Your long wall of text.
an emptiness lived
in the crater of our virtual -
and hugs
where have you gone
moved on
into a distant place.

Liebster Award

Salut ma chère amie~ I’ve been tagged by Sakura & Kya for the Liebster Award. Thank you for the tag! So let’s get down to business.

Sakura’s Questions
Are you the daydream or realistic kind of person?
I am a daydreamer. I build castles in the air with my free time. But I can be very critical when it comes to assignments. I am a realistic dreamer but still a dreamer!

Do you like shopping?
Yes! Leave me in a mall and I’ll memorize the layout and stores in just that one time visit. haha. I love to shop and can do it for hours.

What was 1 regret that you made when you are in college/university?
Time management.

How excited are you towards 2014?
It’s a new year! I am ambivalent tbh but ironically at the same time hopeful it will be a better year.

Where do you want to visit in 2014?

What phone are you currently using?
Blackberry 9900. I’m due to change my phone but I cannot decide between iPhone or Samsung Note 3. Help?

What is your motivation to blog?
Blogging is an outlet for me. I do it when I need to let things out. It is also a way to connect with all my online friends and readers.

What degree are you interested in pursuing? If you already have 1 degree, do you want to take a second degree and what will that be?
I have not done my degree but planning to take an early childhood education one soon. I would dream of pursuing a psychology degree. (The time has passed for me.)

Are you a Windows or Mac fan?
Once you go mac, you can’t go back. *cheesy grin* I love Mac.

What is the thing/person that makes you the happiest person in 2013?
This is a tough question. I guess I would say my family because by default they have always been the people around me that supported me. But my darling friends, Raine, Kate & Kya are amazing people and friends who never fail to brighten up my day. I also look at Chris Colfer, Darren Criss & Arashi.

Eye, lip, cheeks, foundation makeup – what do you like most?
I am terrible at makeup. I need to learn more! I guess at the moment eyes! I like glittery eyeshadows.

Onto Kya’s Questions

1. Why did you start your blog?
I started my blog because I wanted to write, I wanted to connect with my online friends and because I wanted to start web designing again.

2. How long have you been ‘online’?
Years! How do I even define this? I started reading fanfic in 2000. Started playing neopets and using the computer since the late 1990s. I cannot remember when exactly but I think 2000 would be a good guess when I started to create neopet guilds and then from there I started my first blog on geocities/angelfire/freewebpages and got hosted and the rest is history.

3. Work to dream or dream to work?
I would be inclined to say dream to work. We need big dreams to make changes in the world.

4. Do you have a hidden talent?
*checks my pockets* Nuh. I’m still looking for my talent.

5. What book means the most to you?
Tricky question. For me, it has to be the Harry Potter series. It has impacted my life in a way that I can only attempt to describe. I grew up with the HP books. I was a year older than Harry so I could imagine myself being in those shoes (well not harry’s but being part of that world). It was an escape for me. I would disappear into the book when I got my hands on it. I stayed up all night to devour it. It also reminds me of my mother’s love. She took the time to queue up and get the books for me from Australia because she knew how much I wanted the book (because Australia had an earlier release date than Singapore). I always enjoyed the coolness of the book and the scent or smell of the books which reminds me of Australia bookstores/airports. I am also a huge fangirl. I loved being able to indulge in the merchandise (slytherin scarfs, cardigans and the like). I was able to dress up and feel a sense of solidarity with other fans when we were in our HP gear. I also used to roleplay as Harry Potter in a roleplay blog. I have written HP/DM fanfiction. I wish to play quidditch and quidditch pong. I want to visit the theme parks! I want to try butter beer and all the magical stuff. I enjoyed watching Potted Potter and the Harry Potter exhibition. I also ship HP/DM like woah. And the movies are amazing!

6. Do you create your own designs/themes for your blog?
I used too. But now I need to learn everything again because so much has changed. I am waiting for a long break to play around with wordpress again.

7. What Hogwarts house would you be sorted into and why?
Slytherin. I always felt that I belonged to that house (even if pottermore sorts me otherwise and outwardly I don’t feel like I have the “defined traits” of this house). But people are complicated, there are aspects of ourselves which we or others may not see. I like the pride that we (slytherins) have in our house, family and identity. We take care of our own. We are strongly loyal to the ones that we love and although it may sound hufflepuffish, we just do it in a different way that others may not see. We will protect what we love fiercely. We have ambition, pride and the determination to succeed. I can be witty and sarcastic. I can also be mean to people who deserve that scorn.

8. If you were an animal, what would you be?
I like wolves! So I would probably be a wolf.

9. How has your blog evolved from when you first started it?
I am getting lazier! Hahaha! I’ve used many different platforms to blog from blogger to livejournal to diary-x. My first website typed blog made use of inline frames. I coded in html and css. I used graymatter (anyone remember that?) Then I shifted to wordpress and flirted with b2. I started coding in php. And I took a break, now I have to get back to learning how to code wordpress. In terms of content, it used to me more angsty and ranty (while I was a teenager) and I feel there’s a natural progression from then on.

10. If you were a mutant (think x-men) what would your mutant ability be?
I have an on-going thing with Kate who is the Erik to my Charles. My mutant ability would be telepathy.

11. Would you rather meet someone that is a celebrity (and you like) or someone that can offer you good advice?
Can’t I have both? *pouts* I guess it depends on the context or situation? Since I don’t think I need any advice at this current moment, let me meet Chris Colfer/Darren Criss/Ohno Satoshi now! :D

Speaking of singers, I attended a gig (Late Nite @ Esplanade: Coming Home Nathan Hartono) with Bhav on Friday. Nathan Hartono is an amazing singer and a great performer. I was really impressed by his work. I enjoyed his songs Thinking Bout Love & Weight of her Love. You can check it out on his youtube channel that I linked. I really started noticing/following him after seeing him in Spring Awakening and Next to Normal.


Nathan was a total sweetheart! (And a cutie.) He rocked it out and I was having so much fun grooving to the music. The rest of the team were pretty amazing too. I love the intimate setting at Esplanade’s recital hall. I was getting a little emotional listening to his cover of blade (a song about suicide). He also did a cover on cough syrup on his youtube channel.

Before I get distracted again, I would like to nominate Kate, Kya, Sakura, Siti & Qwen for the Liebster award. I will post 11 questions for them to answer and if they like they can nominate 5 more persons.

1. Write down your favourite quote from your favourite book and tell me why you chose it.
2. What is that one song that keeps you going when you’re down?
3. You are the casting director of a movie and your friends are going to be in it. What movie is it and who are you going to cast for each role (including yourself)?
4. How would you react if you met your favourite celebrity/singer/artist/writer/famous person and who is it?
5. What do you like to watch on youtube?
6. Which Hogwarts house would you be in and why?
7. If you had a superpower, what would it be?
8. What will your last meal on earth be?
9. What is you dream coordinate?
10. Where would you like to visit in 2014?
11. What is your favourite song to sing when no one is looking?

facebook windows

I look at you (your pictures) and
If you’ve spared a thought for me
Just as I have remembered
The fond memories of times we had

I knew how I loved you then
And I still feel
The echoes of it
in my heart
Maybe you do too (or so I like to think)

I see your face appears
I long to get to know you
A stranger staring back at me
(And me) Wistful
And longing

Windows of time
Windows of passage
Peeking through and seeing
But not seeing
Who you (really) are

Should I say goodbye
Yet my mouse hovers over
Your pictures
Smiling back
Hello old friend


The first time I came across the Endless was from a fanfiction and a bsb fanfiction at that. Yet I fell in love with the characters based on Neil Gaiman’s Sandman series. I managed to borrow copies of it from the library (on the other side of the island) from my schooling days and until today, the series had left an indelible impression on me.

I met a dear friend of mine, On Yee, for breakfast. It was so lovely to sit outdoors at Wild Honey and enjoying an english breakfast (bacons, mushroom, potatoes and the like). Our conversation veered into her collection of the Endless and we ended up walking into Kino.


The darling friend got me 2 books from the series and being the anal collector type I am, I had to get the rest of the series. (Kino was having 20% off too!) I went into a crazy kino trance mood, splurged and got the whole set. I am so happy right now. Recently, there’s been talk about a movie and JGL will be a producer. I cannot imagine who they will cast but there are some tall expectations.

In the photo, I’ve also gotten the disney CD compilation. Even though I have already a couple of disney soundtracks but I just cannot seem to resist it. I also have been to a few fleamarkets (*scape and public garden) over the month. I got a couple of rings and this crocheted hedhegog has to be my favourite of them all.

I will be flying to taiwan tomorrow so I have to go do some preparations for the flight. Again, I failed to send out my christmas cards this year. (Better late than never?)

I have received some really awesome presents from the girlfriends when we met for steamboat. I really appreciate the new organizer and pen from kikki k. I love that store! I used to get my organizers from moleskin but made the switch this year. I was so tempted to get this a sentence a day book but I have already splurged on the sandman series.


Hello hello

My darling girl, Kya, has renewed my lovely domain for another year. I am so grateful for this gift. Thank you my love!

This blog entry feels utterly random but I was inspired by this picture post. I love the idea of dressing up like a fairy and taking photos in the woods. And I thought that if I had to make a save the date card, this concept would probably be it. It would be absolutely dreamy and gorgeous.

I have to admit that I am hooked onto the show say yes to the dress and I love going onto pinterest to look at wedding things. I might have started planning my wedding in my head a little too early. (I had wanted to be a wedding planner at one point in my life.)

If I had all the resources in the world, I would dream a little pop up cafe. I would decorate the cafe inspired by mori kei aesthetics (think forest fairies, nature), hire staff dressed in lolita fashion and ouji style and bake yummy cakes and pastries. I would name it amakoi (haha yes how original the name is). It is but a dream.

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I got the innocent world mook today. I was not planning to but I could not resist after hearing how lovely the mook was.

I also revamped /dolls where I post pictures of outfit coordinates using doll makers.


Taobao Spree


I have been shopping on taobao and I could not resist getting these items. Unfortunately the first few are sold out. I’ll be crossing my fingers that they will restock them. I seem to be moving towards the mori kei direction (and I still can’t seem to resist rori stuff).

I will make a review post when I get the items. I am hoping everything that I ordered are okay quality (if not good) and fits. I have not dare to peek at my total bill yet.

I have been shopping quite a bit lately and I’ve been chalking it to a “new working wardrobe”.

I also tried a new korean bbq place last night. It was pretty value for money. :D

Blog Matter

Truth to be told, blogmatter dot com was the motivation for me to start working on my blog again. I am a little disappointed that I have lost most of my posts from before but I can choose to remain optimistic. I will have more awesome entries to come.


I have started learning Korean as part of my resolution to spend more time with the sister. I find it easier to learn than French, but more difficult than Japanese. It is time for me to pick up korean songs and dramas. Some korean trivia in my life: My favourite kdrama includes missing you, stairway to heaven, dream high, coffee prince, princess hours. I have been in a kpop concert before (2PM in Singapore) because I had free tickets but I have not been bitten by the kpop bug. I have been to korea but I have not stayed in Seoul before. I love kimchi noodles and I always crave for kimchi fried rice when I watch dramas. I do love going for korean bbqs. I think it’s cute that they use the word FIGHTING~ (korean way of cheering themselves on; jia you).

I had an amazing time in New Zealand. I will be updating the blog with a post dedicated to my NZ trip. I finally have a break from school and I just want to relax. I will also be going to Taiwan in late December with the family. I am looking forward for that trip. The food in taiwan is amazing.

I’ll be off to check out blogmatter and how everyone is up to.

I also give two thumbs up for Rainbow Rowell’s fangirl! I love that book.

(I nearly gave myself a heart attack when I deleted my admin account on wp and my pages disappeared. Phew it’s in trash.)

Lots of love,