refresh

refresh

Of late, I have been feeling a little lost on my blogging direction, especially when it comes to my personal site. But with the birth of cupmb and blogmatter, I have been refreshed! I feel motivated to do more online things because of the connection with fellow bloggers. Surely and slowly, ideas are forming and crystalizing. Haha!

As I sat at the bus stop this afternoon, there was a lady next to me. She was reading a letter as she held onto a huge bag which I assumed were all her belongings. Her hair was cut short and she smelled nice (like how one does after a shower). She was neat and fresh faced. She also did not look local. She was waiting for the bus like me. I wondered about who she is and how her life was. What are her dreams and aspirations? How brave she must be to be so young and working here in a foreign country. Does she have a place to work in and treated fairly if not well by her employees? Does she have a family who needs and misses her? Looking at the way she was reading the letter, savouring each and every word, I know she must be loved from far away. I wish that she and her family will get their “better” life. I hope she has a support group (which is probably far and few between) to ease the loneliness. Some days my heart is heavy from the inequalities in the world. Some days my heart ache about how little and insignificant I am.

This was a small blurb I thought of blogging on april 1st.

I have also updated eat noodly me. Finishing this post with a writing challenge because it is short.

Eat Noodly Me

Eat Noodly Me

It is tough trying to lose weight that you gained in the late twenties. I have terrible eating habits especially the fact that I indulge in whatever I like with no impulse control. I have tried a few times to attempt keeping up with my resolution 2015 but failed miserably. I have only been to the gym twice in this 3 months.

I hope to be more regular in my note keeping. It helps to motivate me and give me discipline. A right mindset is the way to go!

I have decided to record all health related stuff into my other blog Eat Noodly Me over here. I hope it works! I want to lose that 12kg I gained!

Spoken (Word)

Spoken (Word)

My recent obsession is spoken word (poetry).
I would love to dive into it and create something.

I had fun with ten attending story slam today. There was a great variety and quality in terms of story telling and story tellers. Ten even went up for open mike and did a terrific job of sharing her experience.

I would love to try that some day.

I have been busy with work and school. I have been failing terribly at my resolutions. I will pull my socks up. I could not resist and gave in to purchasing Starbucks Sakura tumblers. I will have to make good use of them. :D

Rori Swap

Rori Swap

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These are some of my new lolita pieces after a swap meet. I am in a deficit now.
I ended up spending instead of selling.

I am excited for a themed party in march. It is retro futuristic themed and I am not sure how to coordinate it yet.

I am in a writing slump again.

I feel for people who are unloved during the festive season. We had a four day weekend since Chinese New Year was a public holiday. I saw my grandmother and met relatives I have never seen before. I always anticipate eating my favourite popiah (spring roll), facai and pork bun at Grandma’s house.

The best part of Chinese New Year is the reunion dinner. Family is important to me and it means a lot to spend time together, especially during the festive season. The food was delicious!

Because I wanted to post something…

Because I wanted to post something…

And I am uninspired so I shall do a 10 minute writing challenge at the very least.
A shoutout to Sara whose blog is up again.

10 minutes Writing Challenge10/02
He finds security in mirrors and reflections. He checks and adjusts, checks and adjusts; eyes never really leaving from the glazed surfaces. He was a remarkably plain boy from a small ordinary town. He longed for something bigger in another more exciting city. She, on the other hand, was not quite sure where she belonged to or where she wanted to be. Her words are free, careless and clumsy. And once in a blue moon, she offers pearls of wisdom far beyond her usual gibberish self (as her friends can attest to it). So you would think that at some point of their average parallel lives, they would meet (as every love story do). But this is not quite the love story that the author would like to present. Maybe they might not even meet in the pages 1 to 225. Maybe they will. The author has not decided yet. Or rather the story has yet to unfold itself.

Personality Test

Personality Test

Hello blog!
It’s been a while. I have started my university education and for BUS103 Organizational Behaviour and the first tutorial was fun!

We took personality tests and I was surprised that it has changed a bit over the years.

I took the MBIT and my result was INFP. :D

INFP Personality Type

Take the personality test

And for my big five personality results.

You Are Highly Open to Experience
Your score for openness was high, at 87.5%.
High Openness scorers are more likely to be politically liberal and to participate in artistic and cultural activities in their leisure time. They tend to be drawn to artistic and scientific careers. High Openness scorers are also more likely to have a high IQ.

You Are Moderately Conscientious
Your score for conscientiousness was 50%, which is in the moderate range.
Your score for Conscientious is in the moderate range, indicating that you are fairly average in your tendency to respond to impulses. You probably have some long-term goals and are fairly successful in pursuing them, but can be sidetracked sometimes when a particularly attractive diversion presents itself.

You Are Moderately Extraverted
Your score for Extraversion was moderate, at 45%.
Your mid-range score on this dimension indicates that you are fairly average in your motivation to seek out social rewards. You probably have some desire for admiration, influence, and prestige, but you can also be content when you’re not winning recognition from others.

You Are Moderate in Agreeableness
Your score for Agreeableness was moderate, at 55%.
Your moderate score in Agreeableness indicates that you are fairly typical in the degree to which you balance your own interests with the interests of others. You are probably willing to sacrifice yourself for others some of the time, but you also watch out for yourself quite a bit.

You are Moderate in Neuroticism
Your score for Neuroticism was moderate, at 62.5%.
Your score indicates that you are fairly typical in your tendency to experience negative emotions. You probably feel sadness, worry, anger, and guilt about as much as the average person. You are neither overly reactive, nor especially resistant to the stresses of life.

Read more: Your Results for The Big Five Personality TestJanuary 29, 2015, 1:11 pm | Truity http://www.truity.com/personality-test/test-results/639832#ixzz3QDS1ydnt
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It is always interesting to learn more about myself.

Further Education

Further Education

I am going crazy! I am starting my degree in ECE this coming week and I am still tempted to switch courses to English and Literature. I am torn or in a bind.

I have an inferiority complex when it comes to academics. I did badly for my A levels so I am worried if I can cope with something “challenging” yet appealing to me. And since the Uni I applied for is a private one at that, the recognition of its degree is moot compared to the autonomous local ones. It boils down to the purpose of the degree and my reasons seem frivolous as I keep turning the pieces in my mind round and round.

I am going crazy.

I need to talk to someone.

I do not think I am stupid but I am terrible at exam/time management. And mostly confused.

I am always in a state of confusion. I wish I could shut the voices in my head down.

It would have been simpler if I was a sheep and do what everyone seems to know and can do. But it would not be me.

My local education experience makes me feel small and stupid. The sense of ineptitude and shame because I am “not good enough” and having been rejected from the local universities.

I shall keep the rest of the rant and self pity to myself now.

See ya blog!

PS. Kit Kat ice cream and Macarons to the rescue.